MJINNOCENCE BRACELETS~ for MJ~!!

That seems like the question that I am asked the most…. that, and the media begging for an interview or a sound bite. The answer to the second question is a radical “NO!”

There is absolutely no way I want to give the media one second of anything that belongs to Michael, just so they can get one more minute of ratings, a job advancement for themselves, or some more money in their greedy little paws, even if it is just me.  I am not what they want.  They just want another piece of Michael, and they are NOT getting it from me.  I hold every moment we spent together sacred and personal.  That belongs to us.  My silence is the ultimate allegiance to my friend and hero.

The only one that has the authority and integrity to speak, at this time, is Thomas Messereau.  He must speak in order to balance those scales of justice… remember that symbol?  

I have been at “ground zero” throughout the entire year and a half.  From the second day of production of ONE MORE CHANCE shooting in Las Vegas when my wake up call was interrupted by a news alert and helicopter shots of a raid on Neverland; the airplane ride to Santa Barbara where I witnessed Michael’s arms being twisted behind his back to slam shackles on his wrists.  My heart has been in shackles until I heard the words NOT GUILTY repeated over and over again. Now how do I feel?

I AM FILLED WITH RAGE!!!!!  I saw my dear friend go slowly from a vibrant, creative, loving man to a frail, broken hearted, human being.  He was repeatedly raped (emotionally and mentally robbed and destroyed by force and violence). Day in and day out, in the courtroom and in the media, he was abused and violated in the worst possible manner in front the entire world, and me. 

How do I feel?  I am glad that the jury finally came to the same conclusion we knew all along.  And what was the purpose of torturing this beautiful human being not only by a few ignorant (lacking a sense of awareness) lawmen, but also by a media willing to participate in the crucifixion for greed?  I am ENRAGED! 

I am trying to find the peace in my heart to forgive.  Rage is a useless and horrible emotion to carry.  Over this past week I have tried to cry it out.  I went to the Neverland Gates on vindication day and tried to “hug” it out with all of my friends who marched beside Michael on this journey.  I am still working on it.

Michael shared so much with me every day, and I still can not even conceive of how his body and heart is feeling now.   All I do know is that Michael needs to recover (reclaim, recuperate) from this most heinous act that anyone could have put him through. 

I know he needs to find peace.  He did share with me his desire to be ALONE with his children… for him NOT to speak or see any one for a long time.  I know he said this to also include me, not in any selfish or greedy manner, but for his own survival.  I will respect this completely.  But also in the same breath, he shared his love and gratitude for all of his friends that stood by his side. 

I know we have so many feelings deep within us that need to be expressed.  Many of us feel elated and want to party, some want to bow their heads in prayer and give thanks, and I have my rage to work through.  Whatever we may be experiencing, let us please be respectful of Michael’s healing process and give him the time he needs to be able to regain his spirit to the fullest.

I have confidence that the artist, the God energy that dwells in Michael, will not be able to remain still.  I am sure the music is still dancing in his mind.  I am excited to know how his experiences will translate into his art.

Please, all of his friends, be patient and let us learn, and put the negative behind us quickly.

Let us turn this page with all the knowledge that we have gained.  Let us leave Michael in peace.  He KNOWS we are here… and waiting for him.

Lets keep dancing.

Karen Faye